Monday, February 23, 2009

The way I feel today

... And this woman is frustrated.

Today, I woke up in limbo. I am between frustration and contentment.

Every time I focus on last night's conversation with Michael, I sink lower into a funk. I feel that I am completely in the dark about our future. I wish that he could just give me an idea of what he is thinking. "When will you be ready to move to the next step?" I don't want to push him into something hes not ready for. However, he has been giving me the same answer for 3 years, "When the time is right." What the hell does that even mean? No offense but the time has been right several times. He tells me he wants to give me what I want, but all I want is him.
I had promised myself that I wouldn't focus on this, but it's so hard. It doesn't help that everyone I talk to asks me when we will be getting married or why hasn't he asked you already. He doesn't have to answer them. I do ... and I don't know what to say anymore because I can't think of a reason why we aren't. Maybe if we were in the same state it would be easier ... but right now, I just feel alone.

Feeling a bit blue~ Kubbybear


NTB said...

Sorry girl. Us men suck more often than we should.

kubbybear said...

It's ok. I'm just in a funky place right now. Thanks hun. :)

naturally nina said...

I was there once, and it's really hard, so I can relate. Hang in there! Email me if you want to talk more :)

kubbybear said...

Thanks Nina. I will. :)

Jojo said...

Aw hun, that's tough. I too have been in a similar situation and hope you are ok. Same as Nina said, if you want to chat, please do email me... Sending smiles across :)

kubbybear said...

Thanks Jojo. :)